here. this blog right here, will be closed until further notice. i do not wish to blog anymore and that is my personal choice and decision. i do not need your vile comments, abusive mail and accusations. i love the friends i'v made through rhymes with silver but i never intended to. i wanted to remain anon-to have the freedom to say anything i wish to.
and i can't do that now.
so i'm starting fresh somewhere new. don't come looking for me! everyone that i wish to keep contact with, i have the means to do so.
take care and God bless
for the last time - all my love,
r
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
to fill up space...
1. Name one person who made you laugh last night?
saffy and her excitement over the turtle2. What were you doing at 0800?
in studio doing the 8am news bulletin3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
running around the office looking for an order form dated 19 August 2007. 4. What happened to you in 2006?
i was a very angry young person 5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
"Sbu, whats Lydia's fax number?"6. How many beverages did you have today?
umm.. 2 coffees, 3 glasses of water.. damn, now i need to go 7. What colour is your hairbrush?
black and pink8. What was the last thing you paid for?
Full day package at Mangwanani Private Day Spa yesterday9. Where were you last night?
in bed10. What colour is your front door?
i dont actually have a front door. its a glass sliding door.11. Where do you keep your change?
in my purse. duh 12. What’s the weather like today?
cloudy, slightly cold for my durbanite tastes13. What’s the best ice-cream flavour?
chocolate. duh14. What excites you?
music, food, friends, coming home with shopping bags 15. Do you want to cut your hair?
nope, trying to grow it16. Are you over the age of 25?
not even close! 17. Do you talk a lot?
more than is good for me18. Do you watch the O.C.?
i do not
19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
yeah. Botha. Publishing agent for Lippencott-Williams20. Do you make up your own words?
all the time. and its infectious - i heard zuraida jardine use one of my words once :-P21. Are you a jealous person?
only when it comes to one person - lol22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’
Ava23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’
Kunal
24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
ummm... mi25. What does the last text message you received say?
something along the lines of "i miss you"26. Do you chew on your straw?
yes! disgusting habit but at least no-one wants to share with me after that!27. Do you have curly hair?
curly-wavy28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?
Nando's. My colleague fathima is craving a prego roll.29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?
yusuff30. What was the last thing you ate?
chocolate sponge cake layered with icecream and strawberries and topped with an amazing belgian chocolate sauce.... im drooling again!31. Will you get married in the future?
Allah knows best32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
Namesake - hired it the other night. intelligent, contemporary, good dialogue and filming33. Is there anyone you like right now?
I like everyone til they give me a reason not to
34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
lets see... sunday night i think35. Are you currently depressed?
not in the least - i love my life right now36. Did you cry today?
nope37. Why did you answer and post this?
read my title + im bored and in no mood to process orders38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey
Do i have to??
Friday, March 14, 2008
no its not me
She's just 20 years old. Studied for 3 years in a field she thought was a dream, fast turning to be a nightmare. she should know what she wants from life. she should know where she wants to go.
she SHOULD.
but she doesnt.
Her family expects greatness - constantly comparing, belittling, advising, never praising. She grew up believing she was never good enough. never pretty, smart, funny, ambitious enough. Never enough.
She won her little battles though. Studied something she was interested in even though They felt it was below her, a waste of her talents, a dead end degree. But she loved it. and for three years, she was (mostly) happy.
Now that studies are nearing completion, she has to face talk turning to "plans for the future". but the future is too far away. the Family expects that not just any menial job will do. this has to be a high paying, reputable job at a recognised firm. Success is not negotiable. Indian Muslim families MUST be able to brag about their children.
She wants to see the world. she wants to travel work play. And she's fallen in love with someone for whom the above world is not open. He comes from a simple hardworking family; humble and conservative. He doesnt have a qualified profession so setting off to work in foreign lands seems an unrealistic notion.
But he's a genuine person, decent, sincere, smart and funny. and He loves Her. Oh boy does He love Her. He's told her that if she wants to go see the world, he'd never hold her back, never restrict her dreams. that her happiness was crucial to him.
He would wait.
But would she want to return to life in SA after tasting foreign culture? Would that love be strong enough for her to return?
Or would she begrudge him later for her lost opportunities and mundane small town life?
Who ever knows which decisions are the right ones in Life? Oh for the e'er fixed star to guide us...
she SHOULD.
but she doesnt.
Her family expects greatness - constantly comparing, belittling, advising, never praising. She grew up believing she was never good enough. never pretty, smart, funny, ambitious enough. Never enough.
She won her little battles though. Studied something she was interested in even though They felt it was below her, a waste of her talents, a dead end degree. But she loved it. and for three years, she was (mostly) happy.
Now that studies are nearing completion, she has to face talk turning to "plans for the future". but the future is too far away. the Family expects that not just any menial job will do. this has to be a high paying, reputable job at a recognised firm. Success is not negotiable. Indian Muslim families MUST be able to brag about their children.
She wants to see the world. she wants to travel work play. And she's fallen in love with someone for whom the above world is not open. He comes from a simple hardworking family; humble and conservative. He doesnt have a qualified profession so setting off to work in foreign lands seems an unrealistic notion.
But he's a genuine person, decent, sincere, smart and funny. and He loves Her. Oh boy does He love Her. He's told her that if she wants to go see the world, he'd never hold her back, never restrict her dreams. that her happiness was crucial to him.
He would wait.
But would she want to return to life in SA after tasting foreign culture? Would that love be strong enough for her to return?
Or would she begrudge him later for her lost opportunities and mundane small town life?
Who ever knows which decisions are the right ones in Life? Oh for the e'er fixed star to guide us...
Friday, January 18, 2008
Happy 1st Birthday to RWS :)
Raeesa: you forgot didnt you?
waseem: happy birthday?
lol no your birthday 28th sep
Raeesa: well done but it another birthday...
cmon...
waseem: um i dont know what you talking about gimme clue
Raeesa: sigh... you men
its rhymes with silver's 1st birthday today
waseem: oh happy birthday :)
i didnt know that
did you bake a cake
Raeesa: uh huh. a maryland choc chip cake :P
waseem: ill diarise, i wont forget next year
drool
Raeesa: i dont think she has that long to live hey hun...
shame poor thing - shes very sickly
waseem: aaw why
Raeesa: erratic posts, strange commentors
waseem: her owner seems to always have alot to say ;)
Raeesa: im worried about her maybe i should have it checked out but i did before.
they told em that she needs daily attention - full time work. i dont have the time for it
waseem: you could make her an introvert, invite only
Raeesa: i love her - but maybe she'l be better off in blog heaven :(
she was a good blog
IS a good blog
she doesnt misbehave or anything
waseem: aaw, give her a chance
Raeesa: except for that time she didnt let me post pictures for a month. but that was a bug going around
waseem: you sound like you doing a eulogy
you just give her some time to herself
she needs to know where shes going
Raeesa: i wish i could give her some guidance
im such a bad blogger :(
i should know whats best for my blog
waseem: i think you shouldnt allow anon comments, you know what they say about strangers
Raeesa: thats true. and she's still young and vulnerable but some of her friends dont have blogger accounts. i dont want to keep her away from them just because of that
waseem: ya ok thats another point but in general most of her anons are of the asshole variety
Raeesa: hey some of her blogger "friends" are of the asshole variety too
Oh well, she's still my baby :) i only started this with the intention of staying a year.
waseem: happy birthday?
lol no your birthday 28th sep
Raeesa: well done but it another birthday...
cmon...
waseem: um i dont know what you talking about gimme clue
Raeesa: sigh... you men
its rhymes with silver's 1st birthday today
waseem: oh happy birthday :)
i didnt know that
did you bake a cake
Raeesa: uh huh. a maryland choc chip cake :P
waseem: ill diarise, i wont forget next year
drool
Raeesa: i dont think she has that long to live hey hun...
shame poor thing - shes very sickly
waseem: aaw why
Raeesa: erratic posts, strange commentors
waseem: her owner seems to always have alot to say ;)
Raeesa: im worried about her maybe i should have it checked out but i did before.
they told em that she needs daily attention - full time work. i dont have the time for it
waseem: you could make her an introvert, invite only
Raeesa: i love her - but maybe she'l be better off in blog heaven :(
she was a good blog
IS a good blog
she doesnt misbehave or anything
waseem: aaw, give her a chance
Raeesa: except for that time she didnt let me post pictures for a month. but that was a bug going around
waseem: you sound like you doing a eulogy
you just give her some time to herself
she needs to know where shes going
Raeesa: i wish i could give her some guidance
im such a bad blogger :(
i should know whats best for my blog
waseem: i think you shouldnt allow anon comments, you know what they say about strangers
Raeesa: thats true. and she's still young and vulnerable but some of her friends dont have blogger accounts. i dont want to keep her away from them just because of that
waseem: ya ok thats another point but in general most of her anons are of the asshole variety
Raeesa: hey some of her blogger "friends" are of the asshole variety too
Oh well, she's still my baby :) i only started this with the intention of staying a year.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
somethings gotta give
i am a stresser. i stress over minute things and let the big ones go. in fact i work myself up so much, i usually either
a) get violently sick
b) break out in strange and rare dermatalogical conditions or
c) take it out on people who dont deserve it.
im sorry hun - you were my punchbag this week. i owe you lunch and tiramisu.
i want this job - not because its my dream job or is a step up to anything better, but simply because its safe, i get paid decently and its 5 minutes away from home. are these not good motivating factors??
*sigh* yes i know im settling but my life is kinda UNsettled at this point in time - somethings gotta give.
first post for 2008, new year same r (credits to the ever great one). i dont feel different. not smarter, older, wiser, prettier, uglier, fatter (my scale begs to differ) or confident-er.
bugger the useless resolutions, im simply going to make myself HAPPY this year.
a) get violently sick
b) break out in strange and rare dermatalogical conditions or
c) take it out on people who dont deserve it.
im sorry hun - you were my punchbag this week. i owe you lunch and tiramisu.
i want this job - not because its my dream job or is a step up to anything better, but simply because its safe, i get paid decently and its 5 minutes away from home. are these not good motivating factors??
*sigh* yes i know im settling but my life is kinda UNsettled at this point in time - somethings gotta give.
first post for 2008, new year same r (credits to the ever great one). i dont feel different. not smarter, older, wiser, prettier, uglier, fatter (my scale begs to differ) or confident-er.
bugger the useless resolutions, im simply going to make myself HAPPY this year.
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